Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Better Today

Thanks for all the supportive comments yesterday. I am struggling a bit, but today is so far better.

For those of you who are not aware, SB is going through a non-contentious, but still upsetting divorce (after roughly 15 years together), and I am also trying to get off my antidepressants for the first time in many years. To say that I am on a bit of an emotional roller coaster, is probably putting it mildly. I am about as emotionally steady as a pregnant woman (no offense pregnant ladies!) and even cry at commercials or any happy or sad event for that matter. I'm a damn mess. And I am not used to feeling anything normally. The antidepressants dumbed down quite a lot. I didn't realize this until I got off them.

[Please note: I'm not looking for advice. I just ask for your patience. The posting may not be as heavy as usual for a little while. I'm not feeling particularly funny these days.]

As my brother Nick says, "This too shall pass." It will. I know it. Some things in life, you just have to grit your teeth and get through it. There are no fucking shortcuts.

That's where I'm at.

12 comments:

gingermagnolia said...

More hugs, chucks on the shoulder, goofy faces, and whatever else you need coming your way.

Here's a funny site for ya. http://www.regretsy.com/

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Thanks Ginger. I love you.

Ms. Moon said...

I already quoted the "grit your teeth" thing today twice. Once to myself and once to Billy.
Thanks for the reminder and remember I love you.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Ms. Moon,
I love you back.

The Dish said...

I just love being an emotional fucking basketcase. On minute I am screaming. The next I am crying. Then 2 seconds later I am laughing hysterically. And I am on antidepressants. Imagine what I was like before...

I love you and hope things continue to improve. Some things, especially the super shitty ones, do just have to be dealt and lived with.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Dish,
You know I love you.

SB

Steph(anie) said...

Why the hell would you want to get off the antidepressants???

I ask with love.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Steph,
Because I'm fucking fat and bloated from them.

I answer with love.

May said...

Getting divorced was the hardest thing I have ever done. I also want to say that I WANTED to divorce his ass, and I have been hit by a car. You'd think the whole car thing would be worse than a divorce I wanted, but damn, it was not. So, I understand the difficulty you are going through, and how strong you must be, and I love you. I love you so so much.
love,
May

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Thanks for your words, May. I love you so much.

J. said...

sb i love you and hope things get better. Like I tell other friends, you should find a me-shaped person to hug you.

also, check out this blog if you don't already.

http://missedconnectionsny.blogspot.com/2009/11/doing-laundry-in-our-building.html

xoxo,

j.

Petit fleur said...

Hi SB,

I had no idea about this. I am rooting for you and sending love and healing.
xo pf