Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Better Today

Thanks for all the supportive comments yesterday. I am struggling a bit, but today is so far better.

For those of you who are not aware, SB is going through a non-contentious, but still upsetting divorce (after roughly 15 years together), and I am also trying to get off my antidepressants for the first time in many years. To say that I am on a bit of an emotional roller coaster, is probably putting it mildly. I am about as emotionally steady as a pregnant woman (no offense pregnant ladies!) and even cry at commercials or any happy or sad event for that matter. I'm a damn mess. And I am not used to feeling anything normally. The antidepressants dumbed down quite a lot. I didn't realize this until I got off them.

[Please note: I'm not looking for advice. I just ask for your patience. The posting may not be as heavy as usual for a little while. I'm not feeling particularly funny these days.]

As my brother Nick says, "This too shall pass." It will. I know it. Some things in life, you just have to grit your teeth and get through it. There are no fucking shortcuts.

That's where I'm at.


gingermagnolia said...

More hugs, chucks on the shoulder, goofy faces, and whatever else you need coming your way.

Here's a funny site for ya. http://www.regretsy.com/

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Thanks Ginger. I love you.

Ms. Moon said...

I already quoted the "grit your teeth" thing today twice. Once to myself and once to Billy.
Thanks for the reminder and remember I love you.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Ms. Moon,
I love you back.

The Dish said...

I just love being an emotional fucking basketcase. On minute I am screaming. The next I am crying. Then 2 seconds later I am laughing hysterically. And I am on antidepressants. Imagine what I was like before...

I love you and hope things continue to improve. Some things, especially the super shitty ones, do just have to be dealt and lived with.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

You know I love you.


Steph(anie) said...

Why the hell would you want to get off the antidepressants???

I ask with love.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Because I'm fucking fat and bloated from them.

I answer with love.

May said...

Getting divorced was the hardest thing I have ever done. I also want to say that I WANTED to divorce his ass, and I have been hit by a car. You'd think the whole car thing would be worse than a divorce I wanted, but damn, it was not. So, I understand the difficulty you are going through, and how strong you must be, and I love you. I love you so so much.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Thanks for your words, May. I love you so much.

J. said...

sb i love you and hope things get better. Like I tell other friends, you should find a me-shaped person to hug you.

also, check out this blog if you don't already.




Petit fleur said...

Hi SB,

I had no idea about this. I am rooting for you and sending love and healing.
xo pf